Best Thing in Life

x-th of December, 2018

Until some days ago, I thought it would actually kill me. That how I realized, suddenly, I could see on a person with some amount of hatred, yang mati-matian gue tahan, and how I could feel that it could easily change me and control me…

Hari ini, gue denger hal yang paling ga mau gue denger.

"Itu tuh, ran, yang lagi deket sama..."

dan gimana gue langsung ngebayangin gue akan pulang dan nangis lagi di kasur, cry to sleep, dan kebawa pikiran ke mana-mana, tapi…

Turned out, the exact same thing is actually the best, perfect cure for my infected heart. That the best way to solve a problem is, indeed, to talk about it. That for the first time, my principle “lebih baik ga tau dari pada tau”, turned out wrong.

That the best thing in life is to have a suuuuper light heart. Memiliki hati yang ringan! Ternyata itu yang paling baik di antara semuanyaa… gimana gue bisa seneng banget sampe nangis. Senyum-senyum di depan vanity sambil hapus make up walaupun lagi mati lampu, cuma dengan cahaya lilin, kesenangan yang disebabkan karena hal yang lain dari sebelum-sebelumnya, yang rasanya lebih, apa ya, lebih terhormat? Wkwk. I feel like, I finally have pride. Girls friendship is indeed the best! Semoga ga akan pernah lupa rasanyaaa…